Excerpts from my motivation and self esteem boosting block note

My motivation self esteem block note is close to me all the time. It is my battery charging in life. I keep reading and writing in it to boost my energy and to overcome any suspected down moments.
It helps me to accomplish work and life tasks and boost my energy.

I have motivation block note since three years ago and it has become one of my essential mechanisms to overcome my low self esteem and lack of energy issues.

Let me read excerpts of my block note.

The life of my daughters depend totally on the accomplishment of this task.
This task is a death/life matter for my daughters.
This task is the most important thing in my life.
All my next life counts on this task.
(Talking to myself) You, who is addictive to loosing and the role model of the losers, stand up as a man and have some respect to yourself and achieve the XXX (I state here clearly the task to be accomplished).
Man , have some care to yourself and be something instead of total nothing.
You are disgusting person and scum and garbage bag. Get up as a man and do your responsibility.
Adel the loser has died for ever and his grave was berried deep into earth and he will never come back.
All my brain cells, my focus, my energy, my nerve system will be in this email to perfection it.

etc..etc..etc..

I've thick block note full of those boosting statements and I keep filling it.

As you see, I despise the loosing part of myself and state that clearly and detach my mind mentally from this part to face it.
I use exaggerated words to shock me and to awaken my senses.
I read frequently these statements before each task.
I believe those statements and damp any inner voice which creates doubts or disbelieves around them.
I believed them to the extent that those are the key reality in my life and otherwise was the illusion.
 

Personal improvement through repetitive acts

My daughters have asked me to drop them in the morning away from the school gate. They were urged from the school to walk to the school as part of school initiative to encourage the pupils to do more physical efforts and to urge the parents to park away from the crowd spots near by the school.

Each one of my daughter has  table to be filled with ticks for each time they walk to the school.
They urge me to increase their ticks and fill up the table.

This has inspired me - Please read the previous posts about the learning spirit and the inspirational attitude - to use the way to gain new qualities and habits in my personality.

In my motivational blocknote, I draw the qualities and the good habits which I would like to gain such as punctuality, deep insights in my work, creative ideas, initiatives, knowledge sharing, effective contribution in the meetings, problem solving, innovative ideas, ..etc...

Under each quality, I draw empty boxes. Each time I have deep insight in my work I check the corresponding box and each time I attend a meeting on time or come on time to my work I blacken the punctuality box.

My aim is simply to turn those qualities to a habit and to be organically embedded in my personality as an essential component of it and the subsequent act as a habit.

After this blog, I will blacken as well the box of the life reflection as one of my noted qualities there.

I've around 40 box to be filled. If I filled all of them, those initiated qualities will be transformed to essential building blocks of my character genetics and familiar habits.

The power of repetitive habits are stronger than the power of the conscious acting!

motivational doses

Everyday I charge up myself with motivation and self esteem doses from my motivation boosting blocknote.

I keep it always beside me on the office desk.

Whenever I found slack and lack of enthusism in myself I grab the blocknote and read my noted words and they urge me to accomplish the tasks.

Open up your receivers to the daily inspiration - 2

This is the second day of implementing my resolution to protect and to support my inspirational and reflection moments.
My determination is still there to shield my initiative from the daily stressful needs and to keep my inspirational streaming thoughts in a safe heaven from the daily fire fighting activities.

I feel great as a student in the school of life who is actively and proactively ready to learn and gain more and more knowledge.

What has happened is simply changing the main objective.
The previous main objective was addressing the pressing work and life needs to solve the problems.
My resolution was a decision to change that to seek knowledge through the motion in life.

No the motion in life is a medium for discovering and broadening my knowledge and not an objective by itself.

If that sounds so philosophical for you, or you believe that I'm going into bullshitting mode, try it and you will be satisfied with the result.

If I managed to continue my resolution and not reverting back to the normal worker person who is overwhelmed with the day to day basic needs, I believe the rewards will be so worthy.

I'm steering my conversation, chatting and question in work toward this truth discovering and inspirational mode and so far what I've gained is:
- Improving considerably self confidence.
- Steepening my learning curve.
- Deeper insights in the subjects.
- And.. impressing others with my deeper level of questions and thoughts!

In the following days and months, I will keep writing about this initiative and its challenges and rewards and its impact on my life.
 

Open up your receivers to the daily inspiration

In the middle of the business meeting, where my boss was discussing major business issues and everyone in the meeting was so focused to address the subject and to provide the status of the action items, I was as well concerned about that but this was not the only subject in my mind to focus on.

I was thinking about other irrelevant subjects to the meeting whenever I manage to cut out some moments from the meeting discussions.

I was thinking about the differential equations, and temperature and its effect on the density and mud weight and other subjects which may seem totally irrelevant subjects to the key business issues in hand.

This was part of my new resolution to open up my mind for the inspirations and let them stream wildly and open up the gate of further knowledge for me.

Today I implemented fully this resolution and I decided to protect my mind and my soul from the stressful focus on the urgent problems and issues and keep my all antennas to receive the signals and inspirations and to follow those signals.

the result was spectacular. I indeed gained a lot of intelligent thoughts and deep insights, in addition to the deep insight of what is going on.

I was not just overwhelmed with the urgent daily work issues and the daily routine but I was in continuous receiving mode of the new thoughts and new knowledge as my first priority.

 

Casual chatting as an educational process!

There are so many channels and sources of knowledge and information.
It isn't limitd to the traditional and conventional channels like taking course or training or reading book or receiving a lecture.
I can list dozens and dozens of processes which can be harnessed to act as educational and inspiring processed and they are nothing but normal daily activities like casual conversations and chatting, shopping, cooking, eating, observing, listening, etc.
Each singl activity of those could be harnessed to act as a powerful educational process.
So many channels of learning
Along the scholastic educational process we limited ourselves into the book packed education.
Let,search by doing, by observing,by chatting, 
I transformed the chatting to inspiring process for me to learn more.
Learn something new about myself, or about a new subject.
Even the casual chat could be transformed to a learning process if you open your mind to be inspired.
In the work place, I heavily follow that.
Whenever we are chatting during the morning coffe making or occasionally in th corridor I cease those moments to learn something and induce new thoughts and get new information
Those are not wasted moments if I paid attention to the conversation and opened my mind and my heart to be inspired with what even beyond.
I capitalize on those by further thinking and expand the envelope of knowledge out of them.
Chatting with the people can be a great avenue of learning if we are good and smart listeners and we raised the proper questions and build and grow upon the conversation further thoughts and ideas.
I started to turn each single activity in my life to a learning process, even when I,m shopping I educate myself about the products and the new products and open up my inspiration channels to learn and to explore more and more.
World is a wonderful and big school if we open up our heart,mind and soul in addition to ears and eyes and act as proactive students who are determined to receive as much as they could new knowledge and information.

I've seen TV program about a research sponsored by the american military to engineer and manufacture bionic limbs so the injured american soldiers can return back to normalcy in their lives.
The cost is humongous of these bionic limbs because of the hi-tech in it and the computer chips connected with the neurons and the tuning and coordination of the movement to just hold effectively a cup.

This has urged me to think about putting a price tag on our body. If I will price my hand how much it should be. It should worth millions then.

Actually this price is based on the value because it really can generate millions of it is utilized effectively and how it should function.

And how much for the brain, for the kidney, the heart, ..etc.

Or let,s reverse the question. If these organs are our capital and they are intensive capital, then their return should be tremendous.

I raised this questions to myself occasionally. All my body organs are so valuable and it's value comes basically from their potential to generate value.

I wrote in motivational block note, that is brain is there to be creative in my job, in my personal life, to create value, and to get my master Andy's contribute intelligently into the society and the world.
These billions of brain cells should be harnessed up to their limit of capacity and potential to create huge value in the life and to accomplish so many valuable achievements.

Same for hands, they should be heavily invested in constructing and handcrafting wonderful is.

It is very inspiring to put price tag on your body organs and to deal with them as your capital and your investment and to generate the value they ment to be there to create.